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Times are Changing

As time goes on I think of LJ less and less and how sitting down and writing a meaningful entry becomes exceedingly difficult.

A lot has changed in the 7 months from when I last updated. I am 21! Dragon*Con! Work! Friends! Moving! It has all been a blur and I can hardley believe that it has been a year that I've been with Lockheed as it feels like I was only just posting about how excited I was. I still think about my old job and remissness on how I miss it sometimes. I started a new thread on Reddit r/TalesFromTechSupport after another chain of comments made me write a few of my old stories out and when they asked for more, I started thinking of the fun times I had at ISC/NASCAR which I titled Tales from Turning Left.

I continue to think of where I am professionally and am trying to avoid getting "stuck" where I am. My current position has lead me to a few opportunities that I've been able to take advantage of such as doing severity management and Teir II VPN support but I still feel like I'm anchored where I am with no room for advancement. I continue to try to find other, more advanced positions in the company but unfortunately they're quite hard to come by if I don't look outside of Florida.

Other life things have been alright though. Moved to a new place this month from the apartment which is nice. We now live in a 4 bedroom, 2.5 bath townhouse in a much quieter area which is nice. Still going through the craziness of finishing the move and closing the chapter in the old place. The 15 months I was there brought a lot of change and challenges but I wouldn't change it for the world as I had finally taken the plunge of living out on my own. A new chapter opens in this place and I hope we have just as many fun times here as we did in the old place.

This year has been one of struggle financially which I feel like I can never quite get myself out of the hole I dig myself into. I had two expensive speeding tickets this year among other expenses that feel like they're constantly hitting me whenever I start to climb out. A lot of it is just self control but in one hand, I want to enjoy my free time and on the other, I know I should be saving. I daydream of a life where money isnt on my mind 24/7 and how nice it would be to just focus on other things. The movie In Time really hit home with this feeling of always looking at the money you have left.

With all the small things I still find myself very fortunate in my situation and while sometimes it feels like the world is crashing down around me, I know I'll survive and make it through it.

Turning 21

I've often found myself lacking the motivation to sit down and type out a whole entry when I have simpler methods such as Twitter at my disposal. Although sometimes I get a feeling to sit and write.

I find myself looking at old entries from when I first made my journal back in 2003. I have to laugh when I think about how much I've grown, experienced, and changed in the years since I wrote my first entry. I look at my former self and I question "Would I have been friends with this person?" the answer is no but that is a part of being who I was at that age. Now, I wouldn't stand for that kind of attitude or personality. I really appreciate those who stuck around and put up with me for all those years.

I've seen friends come and go but there is a handful who have always been there when I needed them, even if I didn't ask. Time goes by that I may not talk to them as much as I used to but I still know should the situation call, they would be there for me. In the years have brought forth new friendships which I'm so fortunate to have in my life. I often sit and wonder what my life would be like without the fandom as others consider their place in it. I know I'd still be similar to who I am today but I wouldn't be able to experience my life with quite as many friends.

I feel like my life pulls me from so many directions at once, forcing me to try and find sense in the organized chaos but that is part of the fun of life. I try not to second guess the choices I make as I tend to stick to my gut and go with what feels right although sometimes that can be the feeling right at the time and ignore the long term which is a mistake I'm guilty of.

My life has changed a lot over the last months; all for the better. I still marvel at the fact that where I am right now is because I made the active choice to change my life for the better. With me moving out on my own to leaving the job I was very comfortable in. Life goes well at Lockheed but there is a spark that I miss from my time at ISC/NASCAR. I've had no problems with my coworkers and I absolutely love my management which wasn't something I could say previously but there feels like something is missing. Something that I once had that I don't anymore. I try to think about what I want to do and where I want my career to go but I can never come up with what feels right. I do IT now because it is something I'm familiar with but I always feel as though I want something more. I would try to go back to school but what would my major be? Where do I see myself in 5 years? The questions are endless and I find myself not having an answer to the first. I sometimes wonder if I threw away a good thing at ISC but I know deep down I made the right choice. I was proud to say that I worked at ISC but now I am even prouder to say I work for Lockheed Martin. There is something about knowing the fact that the work I do trickles down into things that help keep the country safe. I laugh as I think that the SBIRS satellite that went up the other day was affected by me; no matter how small. I am proud to work for the company I'm with and I'm proud to support the armed services in what we do.

Things have been going well otherwise. I had a great 21st two-party birthday. First was a small get together with friends where we just hung out and played kinect which is exactly what I wanted the party to be. Next day was spent at Epcot drinking around the world with sophiecabra, raspberryroo, and mangusu. The evening was spent doing a semi failed monorail crawl which was cut short thanks to Disney having last call at 12 but eh, I still enjoyed myself and we were able to run around the Magic Kingdom for a bit. Unfortunately my sister wasnt able to make it out which was a disappointment but she promised to go out sometime soon. Me and my sister have really become a lot closer over the past few years. From bickering siblings to best friends which really makes me happy.

Attended Elliots Spring Gathering last weekend which was an absolute blast as always. I really enjoyed being able to see friends from out of town and locals with the time spent just hanging out and enjoying each others company. Some say that Elliots doesnt have enough program but that prompts you to find your own fun. I guess some are better at it than others but I had no problem enjoying myself. The waterpark was a fun time as it always has been.

I'm looking to the future to see where things will take me. Right now I still don't know what I want to do but I'm sure I'll eventually find it. For the time being I'm going to enjoy the now and try and experience it to the fullest.

On a completely unrelated not, my 1 year anniversary of purchasing the Golf rolled by on May 17th. Went from 97,000 miles to 122,000 in the blink of an eye. I've already experienced so many adventures in it. While I still want to fix the Jeep back up, I've loved the Golf.

And as always... Cellphone camera dump :D

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In other news..

Aside from my birthday coming up things are going alright.

I'm trying to do the best I can at my job while managing other things in life.

Had another awesome trackday at Jennings so expect pictures/video soon.

Trying to clean up and get rid of stuff I dont use anymore so lots of items have been posted to craigs list.

Kenmore Compact Refrigerator 2.4 cu ft.

Logitech Extreme 3D Pro Joystick

Timbuk2 Commute 2.0 Messenger Laptop Bag

Dell Inspiron 8500 Laptop

Logitech G25 Racing Wheel

Sharp Aquos 42" 1080p LCD - LC-42D64U

Vectron Blackhawk RC UFO

Picture Update

Haven't been in the extended post mood lately.. But for now, enjoy some pix.

Things in life have been going alright. This and that... Trying to straighten things out and figure out what I need to do.

It might make sense soon.

Selling my HP Gaming laptop

If you or anyone is interested please pass the link along.

Trying to sell it before the holidays :)


Christmas Wishlist

I don't often ask for stuff for Christmas but should you be so inclined or if in need of ideas.

1) Art. Can't ever go wrong as I love art. Pretty much anything :)

2) Anything Bolt(Disney, not fasteners) related. I already have the big plush and almost every pin out right now :)

3) Giftcards. Bestbuy, Ikea, Starbucks, Barnes&Noble, Pac Sun, Sears, eBay

4) Beer, Beers make me happy :D

5) Anything Volkswagen related specifically the Golf. Posters, wearables, etc :3

Putting some feelers out..

While going through the fun moving process I finally got around to reimaging my previous laptop that I dont use anymore having purchased the XPS from work which I now use as my primary machine. I've debated on selling my previous laptop for a while but never put it up. Curious if anyone on my friends list would be interested in it?

The specs are as follows

Manufacturer: Hewlett-Packard - DV9500t
Operating System: Windows 7 Ultimate 64 Bit
Processor: Intel Core 2 Duo processor T7700 (2.40 GHz, 4 MB L2 Cache, 800MHz FSB)
Memory: 4GB DDR2 System Memory (2 Dimm)
Wifi: Intel 4965AGN
Hard Drive: 240GB 7200RPM SATA Dual Hard Drive (120GB x 2)
Video Card: 256MB nVidia GeForce 8600M GS with HDMI out
Display: 17.0" WSXGA + Widescreen Display (1680 x 1050)
Misc: 5 in 1 media card reader, fingerprint reader, DVD Reader/Writer, Remote Control, Analog TV Tuner Card W/ IR Remote Control

I also have the docking station for it

Which adds your usual ports and makes it a lot more convenient to take it with you as it's one connection for everything. I dont recall where the mouse/keyboard is but if I find it obviously id include it with it. I still have the box plus all of the manuals and discs that were included.

I also have several power adapters and a nice Timbuk2 bag.

For the lot I was hoping somewhere around $700. It has been a good laptop to me and ive had little issue with it sans the Nvidia video issue which was fixed under warranty.

I'm certainly open to offers so if you're interested just shoot me a message on AIM (Slyphox13) and we can work something out.


Things have been plugging along. Everything is moved and setup in the new apartment. Finished my first week of work. Things are going good. :)

Pics are always easier ;)

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It has been an exciting time.

Since coming home from Dragon*Con, a lot has changed in my personal life. I signed my first lease to an apartment, I turned in my two weeks notice, and I rode in a car faster than I ever have before.

As some may know, part of me getting this job at Lockheed means I can move to Orlando which is something I've been wanting to do for quite some time. Happened to work out where my best friends lease was coming up so we got an awesome 3 bedroom apartment in Avalon park which just so happens to be the same complex my sister lives in... On top of that, our unit is right next to hers.. What are the chances of that?! ;P It's kinda funny too as when my sister first moved in and I was visiting, I mentioned how I'd love to live there. Stuff has a funny way of working things out. :)

Also part of me getting my new job is turning in my 2 weeks. It was something I was still kind of nervous about but at the same time, it was such a nice thing to know that all of the drama, all of the bs, wouldnt be my problem anymore. I considered waiting until I got back from Homestead, Miami as not to possible jeopardize me going to support the event (really need the OT) but I had a feeling that the layoffs were coming and in an effort to possibly save someone elses job, I told my manager early. I later found out that week that it wasnt soon enough and we lost two people from our already understaffed team. It brought us down from 6 to 4 to support the entire company... This isnt looking good. While in Homestead I met with the Director and CIO of IT and we talked about my decision to leave. I expressed my concerns and my dislikes of where our team is and how it is being managed which he listened and overall, was able to get things out on the table that before, no one had been willing to bring up. He(the director) also tried to convince me to listen to an offer package they had to get me to stay but wouldnt tell me unless I said I was interested. Curiosity almost got the better of me but I stuck to my guns and flat out told him no.. Even after asking if any amount of money I firmly said no which was kind of a moral win for me. No one ever tells him(the director) no. He always gets his way. Just not this time.

The CIO was a lot more gracious and understanding. He really likes me and is sad to see me go but at the same time, he is happy for me as he knows I am advancing my career. He also said that should anything happen or if few years from now I want to come back, I would always be welcomed which made me feel really good.

But the main reason I was there was to support the Homestead Mami Speedway Izod Nextera Energy Indy Championship weekend. It was my first time to homestead and after a relatively uneventful drive, I found myself in another world. It was my first time to Miami so I wasnt sure what to expect. The track was awesome as was finally meeting many of the users I had come to know only by voice over the years. Work was easy in getting everything setup and I soon found myself with a bit of free time. I had talked with the PR director about "buying" a pass for an Indy ride along and he ended up giving one to me for free. People normally pay $500 for this and after I picked my jaw up off the floor I said yes of course.

I am as you can say... Addicted to speed. Nothing makes me smile faster than the sensation of acceleration and speed. I can not describe how vicious and savage the car was or the sound that it made at wide open throttle.. We ended up doing 3 laps, hitting 180 on the straights. The sensation of G forces in the turns was brutal. I could never imagine doing this for hours which brings me to have a lot of respect for the drivers. Was able to get some pics of my dumb mug after I got out of the car and while we were doing laps.

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I can't wait until I go back to Homestead later this month for the CCS/ASRA Championship weekend as our team is competing there. Going to try and score a free track day to take my bike around.

The rest of the trip was a lot of walking around, fixing, and people watching. Took some pics with my phone and camera so I'll leave them to tell the rest of the story.

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Moving the rest of my stuff into the apartment this weekend.. Getting ready to start the new job Oct 18th. So much happening in a small amount of time but I'm enjoying every minute of it.

Dragon*Con Pix

So much to remember.. I loved D*C and will definitely be returning next year. Pics for now.

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Many thanks to chorca for letting me borrow his camera. :)

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